How I Stop Myself from Binging

Okay...before anyone starts making assumptions, this entry is not about 'how not to eat'. These are just ways in which I stop myself from binging/eating when I'm not supposed to...(and some of it is supposed to be funny)... :) :)

* Watch 90210. Ok, I really hate the show (barring Jessica Stroup, she's just SO pretty!) but all those skinny girls on it make me realise how HUGE I really am. Goodbye appetite! :)

* Watch football. Although 'my' country is nowhere close to qualifying I've been rooting for Italy(sniff...sniff..) for over a decade...and now I have two other teams to support: Argentina & Spain (mainly b/c I LOOOVE Barcelona). So during those 90 minutes - I don't eat ANYTHING b/c I'm tooo anxious. :) I keep a bottle of water with me and keep sipping that every few minutes. Funny thing is, I just noticed this trend a couple of days back (damn!)...now I'm gonna watch each and every single match: including all the league ones.

* Play Left 4 Dead 2. This one's pretty straightforward. If both my hand are busy, I can't eat. :)

* Play with my pup. Everytime I get a craving I pick up the ball and play fetch with the pup. (Now he keeps bringing the ball over every few minutes..aww ) :)

* Have pictures of skinny girls every where possible: Desktop wallpaper, screen-saver, cell phone background, in my journal...and I keep changing them often...

* Make random lists (such as this) to take my mind of food.

Ok, that's all for now :)
Love x

Results!! Well Almost...

I'm super excited!! Finally beginning to see results!! :) :)
But I still have a little bit to go...will post as soon as I have reached it!! :)
Right now I'm concentrating on staying active and controlling my portions...
My day usually goes like this:
1. Wake up, breakfast: Special K + Skimmed Milk
2. Lunch - boiled veggies (a small bowl) w/ lemon juice & olive oil
3. Soup (probably a toast)
(If i get hungry in the middle I either have a few carrot or cucumber slices)
Plus:
1. A hour in the gym doing cardio + strength training
2. Walk with my dog for an hour

Yeah, it's kind crazy for me and keeps me on my toes... but I'm so excited about this. I have been following this for a week. And the thing is, if I feel like having a chocolate, I don't deny myself that. I go ahead and buy a tiny piece - so that's really working b/c I don't get tempted by these 'forbidden' food items
Anywhooooo....more sooon!
Love x

Another Day

I always think my life will be perfect once I'm thin (again). I remember the days when I used to be thin - I wouldn't mind going shopping with my friends, I had tons of confidence...I was HAPPY. And that's what I want back mainly. I want to go out with my friends and not feel like the fattest girl on this planet...I wanna try out all sorts of clothes and feel great in them... some people say it's all in your head and you should feel confident about yourself no matter what size you are. Hell, that doesn't work for me. Not one bit.
So here I am, once again. I really want things to work out...Somehow I feel I'll be better at my job if I'm thinner. Feel my life will begin to improve. Even if it doesn't - at least I'll be thin. And that's reason enough to be happy..

I sort of went off track and ate a few (three) cookies last night...staying up and watching football always makes me hungry. But I guess three is better than finishing off an entire packet...hmmmm....

Okay, that's all from me. x

Progress (sort of)

I was supposed to fit into this shirt by the end of last week...but it still is a bit snug. I can button it up but I can't wear it anywhere outside because it obviously still a little small. Sigh. But I guess even that's progress.
I haven't been able to get to the gym as frequently as I'd planned but I guess even three days at the gym is better than nothing at all. My squash partner is on vacation so I haven't played in over a week (it really is a bore playing by yourself). :(
In August, I'll be heading 'home' for a short while. I hate visiting my extended family. The only thing they talk about is my weight...and right in front of me, like I'm not even there!!! No one bothers to ask how I'm doing...or about my job...or my future plans...ugh! I hate (some) of them.

So I really want to drop down to a size 12 before I meet them. At least they'll get off my back and I can have a nice time (by myself). So yeah, I'm really bugged about that!

Another thing that really annoyed me was this article in Marie Claire: I Married A Total Stranger

Once you've read it, and if you're Indian/Asian/whatever, you'll know what I mean. This woman's clearly written this keeping a particular demographic in mind. What a bunch of crap! I'm really disappointed with Marie Claire. Tsk!

Anyway, that's all for now. Love x

*Edit* The article per se is kind of old. But wth!