The holidays are almost over and boy am I glad! It seems to me that all people want to do during the holidays are eat, drink, eat some more, sleep, drink and EAT! Since I really don't have too many friends out here, I force myself to go hang out with the few people I actually know - and they really aren't the healthiest of eaters.
Sigh. I'm too scared to weigh myself now.
Anyway, yeah, so the married guy thing. I just took sometime to think about it and yeah, don't like him that much. I think I was just in love with the idea of a guy like him. So yeah, gonna forget about that now...I'm so glad I started this blog thingy though. Since I've moved away from my girlfriends, I don't get to really 'talk' to them anymore. And there's only so much you can say in an email (plus, other than one friend (Em), no one really bothers replying..so I've completely stopped emailing them)...But that doesn't matter right now...I'm just so tired...
I want to change my life, myself - and nothing seems to be working. People think I'm this funny, cheerful person - always up for partying and fun - but i'm NOT! I totally hate myself and I hate the people around me. I wish I could move elsewhere but right now I have to be here...
I need to get a life!
This post has been random. Incoherent. But it'll have to do I guess.
i totally get how ur feeling
ReplyDeletehang in there sweetie, everything will fall into its place in the end.
xox